Humiliating redundancies in our "modern" culture...

The more I think about it the more I dislike it and the more I dislike it, the more I loathe it... you see where I'm going with this. It's come to a point that I regretfully can't enjoy it anymore. I'm starting to reject culture, or better yet the current one. Don't get me wrong, the status of things is wanting to get faster live fuller lives, but really, is this what we're really doing? Take for instance, I take out my blackberry and (in theory) instantaneously connect with one or, up to however daring I am, let's say 7 friends at a time. Now, really? Are you consciously putting all your thought into your friends or are you giving them that roughly 14% of your attention? Are those the type of odds you want for your friends and loved ones? "Forget about it!" Honestly, I'm not sure what it is about today, but I feel like I'm definitely NOT even keel, and I think it's getting worse. What did it say in that book I was reading? Oh yeah -- if the culture they're selling you isn't for you, don't buy it -- and to some degree, I completely agree. Can I return it? Or do I have to just pay my dues for what I have? I can tell you what, I'm not buying anymore than I "have" to. I feel like I'm in between a rock and a hard place, asking myself what do I truly need comparatively to what I want. What am I getting out of it? Am I becoming more happy with who I am? Or am I just beginning to understand what it means to be upset? Where is the majesty in our culture? Moreover, when did it leave? I remember when it used to be take what you need, 'there are starving kids in Africa', we're having left-overs tonight. BUT NOW, Want, want want... "I need this"... Where "The more the better?" Used to be a sit-down restaurant slogan, it's now, a majority slogan. "The More the Better!" The more the better, the happier you are? The more the better, the more you have, the happier you are? The more the better, the more you have, the happier you are, the more you're likely to lose? In the end, you leave here with nothing. Hell, you started with nothing. Where did this all come from? I feel like such a hypocrite, when I spill my guts on these topics. I do have a collection of things, books, movies, games... and a small little companion - Thank god for her. The only real thing that matters at this point. Funny how mismanaged decisions, bring light to the darkness... but... 

Seriously, she's more entertaining than all of what I have. So, I ask you this? Where is your little piece of Heaven? Are you buying what others are selling? Are you giving all that you have to give or giving what you can? Nothing else spells love and happiness than giving your all for someone or something, well, for me anyway. So, I urge you to ask yourself, are you doing all you can to be happy? Is your happiness superficial? Are you just filling filling the void with "stuff" that was left behind? Don't be another follower, think for yourself, find your own meaning to happiness... I've found mine... the question is where will it take me?